Friday, February 24, 2012

True Beauty = Happiness

Yesterday was a crazy day. There are days when I just don't understand myself at all. I woke up in a total funk, the last thing I wanted to do was go to school. I ended up going anyway because I don't have time to miss class. I went to class and then I came home. I only have one actual class on Tues/Thurs. I have an institute class too, but it is several hours later. I came  home and talked to my roommate and then I started bawling. Don't ask me why? It just happened that way. I looked at the clock and realized I only had about four minutes to get to the institute. So I busted to my room, got my bag and hurried up the hill praying that my mascara was not all over my face because I didn't even have time to look in the mirror.

One thing about institute, you are really only late if you come in after the song and guess who beat the song? Yep, that's right I did. Not sure how, but I made it. The lesson was so amazing. It always amazes me the love that I feel from my Heavenly  Father. After that I went to work. This is the point where the story actually makes sense. I had an ah-ha moment yesterday. I was sitting at work and I had decided just to write. My posts are always super long, so you probably realize that I figure my life out when I write and when I run. Anyway while I was writing, I realized how completely unhappy I am and how I was looking to other people to make my happiness. Then I realized how absolutely ridiculous that is. I am the only one that controls my attitude and my happiness. If I am not happy, then it is my own darn fault.

At the beginning of this year, I wrote that I want to smile more. I've changed my mind. I want to be happy. You can smile and still be completely unhappy, but true happiness is extremely visible. More than anything I've discovered that happiness is a choice. I'm not perfect and I'm not ever going to be, but I truly want to be happy. There will be bad days and good days; really bad days and really good days, that is okay.  It is all up to me. I am the only one that says if I am happy or not. Starting right now, I will be happy. I will smile with a smile that reaches my eyes. I will laugh with deep ab-working laughs and I will not let those around influence whether or not I enjoy life.  Live it up! Today is my day!
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Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy or SAD!

Well Happy Valentine's Day! A shout out to my two roommates who are engaged, Congrats! I think Valentine's Day is one of the funniest days of the year. Men are criticized for not buying a more expensive gift and women are frustrated by the lack of thought put into said gift.  The best part about this holiday is that jewelery stores and Wal-mart increase their profits by who knows how much! Then there is the SAD (Single Awareness Day) parties which are really as sad as they say they are. But, all I can say is that I am enjoying life right now. I'm single and loving it! (Faux pas.... Yeah probably but who cares!) Oh, just because I think this day is so funny!
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Thursday, February 9, 2012

My Favorite Thing...

I can honestly say the thing that I love more than just about anything right now is WESTERN SWING! I love it so much! I went last night like I have done for the last six weeks and it was so much fun! I danced with a lot of fun guys and had an absolute blast. I love it when guys decide to do lifts with me. Last week, I danced with a kid that did the A-frame with me and it was awesome! Which is kinda ironic because when I was in the western swing class I almost always refused to do lifts. Crazy right?  Anyway I came home just smiling! There were so many good things that happened last night, like I got an awesome parking spot, which never happens and it totally made my day! I'm still smiling! :) Just because I really love it and I have done all of the moves in this video. :)








Thursday, February 2, 2012

Tired

You know those weeks when you are just tired? Maybe it is because you had a busy week or a lot to do or maybe it is because you just stay up way too late. That has been my week. It feels like I have lived at the library trying to finish my three papers and studying for the three tests I have between now and next Friday. Here it is Thursday and I can't focus any more. I'm tired of studying and tired of papers and tired of projects. The worst part is that I have no reason to complain, because other than school, my life is great. My roommates seem to be even busier than I am and I just wonder how do we become this busy? Probably the biggest thing that will help me this weekend is that I'm going home. I went two weeks ago for my Dad's Birthday, but it is time to go again. I can't wait to go home and have someone cook for me and to be able to play with my dogs and maybe I will be able to ride my horse. Simple things that make me so happy and help me remember that I am more than a student with a part time job, because when I go home I remember that I'm a farm-girl that loves to ride horses and spend time with my family. Can't Wait!